Thursday, June 05, 2008

Fleeing The "Pieties"

Excerpts from writings of Mother Maria of Paris on the Orthodox Church in Russia (and by default throughout the world):

Synodal Piety

"And the cathedrals -- the crowning expression of the synodal architectural craftsmanship -- were overwhelming in their massiveness, their spaciousness, their gilt and marble, with huge cupolas, resonant echoes, immense royal doors and costly vestments. Colossal choirs performed special Italianate and secularized ecclesiastical chants. The images on the icons could hardly be seen, having been encased in gold and silver covers. The deacon could hardly lift the book of the Gospels, with its heavy binding, and he read it in such a way that at times it was impossible to understand a single word. But it was not his job to make the reading understandable: he had to begin with a kind of unimaginably low rumble and end in a window-rattling bellow, showing off the mighty power of his voice. Everything had but a single purpose, everything was in harmony with each aspect of the epoch's churchmanship, everything had as its aim a display of the power, wealth, and indestructibility of the Orthodox Church and the great Russian State which protected her.

..."Here everything is channeled toward conservation, to the preservation of the foundations, to the repetition of feelings, words and gestures. Creativity demands some new kind of challenge; here there was none, neither in the field of ideas, nor in the field of arts, nor in the way of life. Everything was strongly guarded and protected. Innovation was not permitted. There was no need for any creative principle. The synodal type of religious life, which promoted other values along with spiritual ones, namely those of the State, of a way of life and of a particular tradition, not only distorted and confused the hierarchy of values, but often simply replaced Christian love with an egotistical love for the things of this world. It is difficult, even impossible to see Christ, to experience a Christianization of life, where the principle of the secularization of the Church is openly proclaimed. This type of piety was not up to the difficult task of rendering to God what is God's and what is Caesar's to Caesar."

Ritualism

"Christ, who turned away from scribes and Pharisees, Christ, who approached prostitutes, publicans and sinners, can hardly be the Teacher of those who are afraid to soil their pristine garments, who are completely devoted to the letter, who live only by the rules, and who govern their whole life according to the rules. Such people consider themselves in good spiritual health because they observe everything that is prescribed by spiritual hygiene. But Christ told us, it is not the healthy who are in need of a physician, but the sick. In fact, we have today two citadels of such an Orthodoxy -- traditional, canon-based, patristic and paternal Orthodoxy: Athos and Valaam. A world of people far removed from our bustle and our sins, a world of faithful servants of Christ, a world of knowledge of God and contemplation.

And what do you suppose most upsets this world of sanctity? How does it regard the present calamities which are tearing us apart, the new teachings, heresies perhaps, the destitution, the destruction and the persecution of the Church, the martyrs in Russia, the trampling down of belief throughout the whole world, the lack of love? Is this what most alarms these islands of the elect, these pinnacles of the Orthodox spirit? Not at all. What strikes them as the most important, the most vital, the most burning issue of the day, is the question of the use of the Old or New Style Calendar in divine services. It is this that splits them into factions, this that leads them to condemn those who think other than they do, this that defines their measure of things."

Aesthetic Piety

"The eyes of love will perhaps be able to see how Christ himself departs, quietly and invisibly, from the sanctuary which is protected by a splendid iconostasis. The singing will continue to resound, clouds of incense will still rise, the faithful will be overcome by the ecstatic beauty of the services. But Christ will go out on to the porch and mingle with the crowd: the poor, the lepers, the desperate, the embittered, the holy fools. Christ will go out into the streets, the prisons, the hospitals, the low haunts and dives. Again and again Christ lays down his life for his friends.

What is our beauty and our ugliness in comparison with Christ, his eternal truth and eternal beauty? Does our beauty not look ugly when compared to his eternal beauty? Or, is it not the reverse? Does he not see in our ugliness, in our impoverished lives, in our festering sores, in our crippled souls -- does he not see there his own divine image and a reflection of his eternal glory and eternal beauty? And so he will return to the churches and bring with him all those whom he has summoned to the wedding feast, has gathered from the highways, the poor and the maimed, prostitutes and sinners."

Ascetic Piety

"There is also another respect in which asceticism can cease to be a method for attaining higher spiritual values and become an end in itself. An individual may carry out one or another form of ascetic exercise not because it frees him from something or because it offers him something, but simply because it is challenging and demands an effort. It provides him nothing in the outer world, nor does it contribute anything to the content of his spiritual experience, nor does it advance him on his inner path. It is unpleasant for him to limit himself to one particular sphere -- so it is in the name of this unpleasantness that he must do this. The surmounting of an unpleasantness, as the only goal, exercise for the sake of exercise, is at best a working-out of a simple submission to disciplinary challenges and is, of course, a distortion of the ascetic path.

All of the above are mere trifles when compared with the fundamental conflict of world view which now characterizes Christianity. This conflict concerns the most essential, the most fundamental understanding of the goal of the Christian life and divides, as it were, the Christian world into two basic points of view. I am speaking here of the salvation of the soul."

and finally: The Evangelical Path

"What is most characteristic of this path? It is a desire to "Christify" all of life. To a certain degree this notion can be contrasted to that which is understood not only by the term "enchurchment," but also the term "Christianization." "Enchurchment" is often taken to mean the placing of life within the framework of a certain rhythm of church piety, the subordination of one's personal life experience to the schedule of the cycle of divine services, the incorporation of certain specific elements of "churchliness" into one's way of life, even elements of the Church's ustav. "Christianization," however, is generally understood as nothing more than the correction of the bestial cruelty of man's history through inoculation with a certain dose of Christian morality. And in addition to this it also includes the preaching of the Gospel to the whole world.

"Christification," however, is based on the words, "It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me" (Gal. 2:20). The image of God, the icon of Christ, which truly is my real and actual essence or being, is the only measure of all things, the only path or way which is given to me. Each movement of my soul, each approach to God, to other people, to the world, is determined by the suitability of that act for reflecting the image of God which is within me."

Read it all. The excerpts I've quoted here are NOT the most informative, provocative, and edifying passages by far, so take a look see!

Monday, June 02, 2008

Test of Tears

Today was the first time I ever cried during a test.

I couldn't even calm myself down. I took deep breaths and managed to hold back the tears (a bit) but that lump--you know the lump I'm talking about--did not leave my throat. It was so swelled up that I couldn't breathe. It didn't help that earlier, when I asked my prof for the value of a constant I needed in order to solve the problem a different way, he refused to give it to me, and kept telling me to "find a different way." Yes, erase all that work and "find a different way," oh, and by and by, the test is over soon, and there's other problems of the same magnitude that you have to tackle.

Joy.

So that, all the studying, realizing that you really can't study enough for physics (because you get thrown curve balls when you think you've got the pitcher alll figured out), then that final frustration all just exploded within me, and for the very first time, in a science class, no less, I was boiling hot, shaking, hyperventilating, and crying angry tears.

I didn't answer the last question. I just wiped my face, handed in my paper, and hoped that everyone else was too involved in their own tests to see my red, puffy eyes. I was so glad they were concealed behind my glasses (emo moment!).

God was with us and with me. If it wasn't for Him, I might not have made it to the bathroom without letting the tears go. In the Our Father and the Hail Mary, I was praying for strength, guidance, and peace. Before I could coherently pray, I know that the Holy Spirit was praying within me, and that my name was on the lips of the saints.

If it wasn't for God's grace, I would despair in the fact that it's more likely that this will get worse for this little undergraduate before it gets better, if it gets better. I'll definitely be praying a lot more further on in my academic career--even more later, when I get a real job, and when I have to raise a family. You know, when very well-being of other people will depend on me.

Jesus does not leave us orphans. Come, O Comforter!

Oh, and I've been reading St. Ambrose at www.ccel.org (gotta love Calvin College). Good stuff.

Saturday, May 31, 2008

Grilled Cheese!

Yes. My returning post--after more than a month--will be about grilled cheese.

As most college students know, this is one of the best college staples up there. It's even better than Ramen, because it's actually, you know, real food.

But lets get creative here! Grilled cheese sandwiches aren't just for cheese anymore.

Suggestions:

tomatoes <---favorite! peppers turkey ham bacon grilled chicken (esp. barbecue!) scrambled egg ...and anything else you would put in a salad. I wouldn't know because I don't know you like that.

...and ya' done.

Extra points if you can squeeze the contents of all the major food groups on there. Should be easy, seeing how two are automatically taken care of.

Also, a grilled cheese sandwich alternative: quesadillas! Same rules apply.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

The Personal Prayer Book: A Must.


I don't know if I can stress this enough.

I'm one of those people who likes to compartmentalize my resources as much as possible. Whether I need some time for prayer and meditation or just a quick burst of faith, having an all-in-one lil' book is great for me.

Just get a little pretty journal, with or without lines, and jot down your favorite prayers, Psalms, and Bible passages, along with your prayer intentions and prayer lists. This works out a lot better than carrying around a Bible and a prayer book all the time, and it's certainly more convenient to have when you want to read a Psalm, a passage, and a troparion to a certain saint all in the same five minutes. It's certainly great for us students, since our textbooks compete for backpack space with our laptops enough as it is.

Saturday, April 14, 2007

My Patron Saint...Part 2

Hymns of the St. Mary of Egypt:

Apolytikion: Plagal of the Fourth Tone
In you the image was preserved with exactness, O Mother; for taking up your cross, you did follow Christ, and by your deeds you did teach us to overlook the flesh, for it passes away, but to attend to the soul since it is immortal. Wherefore, O righteous Mary, your spirit rejoices with the Angels.

Kontakion: Second Tone
By the toils of your struggles, O God-inspired one, you did hallow the harshness of the desert. Wherefore, we glorify your memory, as we honor you with hymns, O Mary, glory of the righteous.

Glory of Psalm 140, Sunday of Saint Mary of Egypt; Great Vespers.
Tone 4

Lord, I have cried out unto Thee, hear Thou me. Hear Thou me, O Lord. Lord, I have cried out unto Thee, hear Thou me. Attend to the voice of my supplication when I cry out unto Thee. Hear Thou me. Let my prayer arise before Thee as incense, and the lifting up of my hands as the evening sacrifice. Hear Thou me. O Lord.

Glory to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Spirit.
The power of Thy Cross, O Christ, O hath done wonders; for she who had been a harlot strove in the ascetic way. Whereupon, she cast away the weakness of nature and bravely contended against Satan. Then, having achieved the prize of victory, she doth intercede for our souls.

From this source.

Troparion, Tone 8

In thee, O Mother, was exactly preserved that which was according to the divine image. For thou didst take the cross and follow Christ, and by thy life didst teach us to ignore the flesh, since it is transitory, but to care for the soul as an immortal thing. Therefore, thy spirit, O holy Mary, rejoices with the Angels.

Kontakion, Tone 4

Having escaped the fog of sin and having illumined thy heart with the light of penitence, O glorious one, thou didst come to Christ and didst offer to Him His immaculate and holy Mother as a merciful intercessor. Hence thou hast found remission of transgressions, and with the Angels thou ever rejoicest.
From this source.